2013 has not been a banner year. It's been one of the hardest, darkest years as well as one of the most exciting years. My emotions have been to all kinds of extremes and I wish that as the year comes to a close, I was at a place of peace.
2013 was filled with a lot of hard work, devastating losses and frightening realizations. The only bright spot of this year had been our house -- and it's really more than bright, it's brilliant. But our house aside (because this blog is dedicated to how much I love our house), I don't recall a lot of good from this year.
Evan and I both developed unhealthy habits and paid the price by gaining weight. We worked a lot, which meant I don't have a lot of great memories of times with friends or family. Working so hard also threw into stark realization who my true friends are understanding there were times when I needed them to give more because I simply ran out of hours in the day. And, I also realized there's a whole lot of friends who fade away if I don't take the initiative to reach out.
We lost our baby puppy in a truly heartbreaking moment leaving both of us raw and depressed for months. God, I miss him. And then there's the guilt. The guilt I feel with losing him the way he did, the guilt I feel in not being a better wife, the guilt I feel in letting myself down.
To say I will be glad to see 2013 pass is truly an understatement. I desperately need 2013 to come to an end for my health and sanity.
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I hope that 2014 brings wisdom to know where I want my life to go. I hope that 2014 brings wonderful memories with family and friends. I hope that 2014 brings the start of healthy, sustainable habits and with it a healthy life. I hope that I'm a good wife, friend, daughter and sister. I hope 2014 brings adventure, joy and happiness.
